The memories stagger in upon me chaotically, as in a fantasy . Insects stinging, drawing blood. My hands, my breasts, trapped in unyielding metal. My movements secured with hooks buried unfathomable inside my body: I am filled, I am owned. I walk like a marionette, with every step the hooks pull with cruelty inside my ass and my cunny. When I am released it is only to be stretched over a log and staked out in the grass; again I am left wide-open, unable to protect myself from insects, biting my open skin. My head secured in place with stakes and a gag. Shrieking as a worm is dangled over my face, crawling into my nose, squirming its slippery flesh over my tongue and my lips. And yet 1 memory towers above the rest of my torturing; man called it the mala mansio.
In the box, that mind is a shell.
Where is my torrent of fantasy ? Here is the silence this follows the thunder and blood?
I breathe in this space, four corners no light- four corners this fix me
and
I am tied into that location.
I am held here like a moon in powerless orbit.
My voice echoes so strangely from those aggressive corners.
Every moment my panic threatens to overtake and drown me.
Lad has kicked the door shut: the echo surges through my uncovered flesh.
Some booming metal doom.
And now- the moving pictures? The glory I was drenched in?
My eyes are open but there is merely darkness.
The warped dreams begin: perverted worlds for reflections to inhabit.
They stomp over my fear; leave me restless, electric.
This girl in the box- slippery and throbbing: can it be?
I envy the moment of my recognition, some towering bliss.
Rusty walls tremble upon me. My fingers reek animal fear.
Hell is so small.
I lean over the precipice of some dangerous understanding. The red drums And roarings seem so far away; is someone there? A voice rings hysterical- A scream: my own?
This haze somehow soothing- the metallic womb. I float free from the Cords and tangles, free from the traps of motive. Free of each will: but this I have chosen.
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